New Chapter in Life Soon..

Yes. That's what the heading reads.

Today i had my last lecture as a student. Well the lecture was alright. Entertaining. We got back our project report and we got an A-. Woot. Singapore Tourism Board chose our report as one of the top 4 (actually 8 because 3rd & 4th had 3 groups each).

So yes. That being said, i'm graduating at the end of April. Gosh. How time flies. I already miss being a student. You know, perks, holidays (or self-declared ones), ya da. The working life is hard.

I've gotta find a job soon. But not before i travel, that is.

And of course... my birthday always comes with exams. This time my first paper is on my birthday.

Shakespeare's birth date = Shakespeare's death date = my exam date = my birth date. ARG.

Never mind. In a way, it's the last. I'm not looking forward to 22 though. Who is? Unless i have a fortune or something waiting for me at 22. Bah.

Alright i should start studying for my last exams. Luck to me!

Till then.

her
FRAMED
BEAUTY
9:59 AM;;

Love and Blindness

I just realised something. This sudden thought came to me.

People should fall in love and not be blinded by it.

I want to fall in love but i don't wanna be blinded by love like most people are.

I want to see the flaws and everything.

Is that even possible?

Haha. Just a thought.

I'm off to Cambodia.

Wish me luck.

her
FRAMED
BEAUTY
5:42 PM;;

Happy Halloween!

This year's halloween is sorted awesome. Well, it's the first time we (the girls) really celebrated it by dressing up. We went to Zouk's halloween party. And we queued for quite awhile but we got in nevertheless.

The girls arrived at my house which was our HQ and started dolling up for the night's event. I'm, well, a nurse. Rina's a vampire. Kat's an air stewardess. Yum's a cow girl. Sophie's a dead photographer and Sinyee's a mad scientist. Rina, Kat and I came up with a silly story to join us all together.

Once upon a time, there lived a girl. One day she was bitten by a vampire bat and she turned into a vampire. As her best friend, the nurse, could not save her life, but did not want her to take another's, so she continued to give the vampire blood. However, Ms Vamp's thirst for blood was too overpowering that she bit an air stewardess on flight. At that time, a photographer snapped a picture of the scene but was accidentally shot dead by the cow girl, who was sitting at the back of her. Upon landing, a scientist heard of the story and quickly got down to finding a cure for the thirst of blood for these vampires. She became too engrossed that eventually she turned mad. The end.

Anyway the crowd at Zouk was alright. I wished i walked around more to take pictures with those in costume. I know people just kept sayin "Nurse, nurse! I'm feeling a little ill.." but i just smiled haha. My syringe ain't working. I liked my costume though. I'm glad i managed to find the white fish net's and got gloves too. Well, actually come to think of it, Zouk didn't seem to have a lot of deco internally. It wasn't as scary as its postcard said it'd be. I wonder how was MOS. Maybe next year we'd go there.

We met the boys over there too, but they weren't dressed up. I saw some people i know here and there. I think all of us found some counterpart (eg air stewardess and pilot) except Soph. I was searching high and low for a Doctor and finally found one. Lol. Well, it was an interesting event. Took lotsa pictures. I think once in awhile it's good to play dress up and be a character. I had fun with the girls. Hee. It was my break from school. Looking forward to next year's. But i do miss carving a pumpkin when we celebrated Halloween during our secondary school days.

her
FRAMED
BEAUTY
7:22 PM;;

Thoughts...

I read that, in life, we have so many disappointments and things that really affect us, such as a death or just a mere rejection. But what matters is how you pick yourself up. Don't compare the degree of pain or loss because a man who lost his job might feel as much pain as a kid who lost his father. Either way, it's still a blow and it's how you bounce back that matters. Think positive.

I reckon one should not be too greedy. I know of some people who seems so greedy. They want everything. I reckon if you keep wanting something better, and go for something new, in the end, you'd end up with nothing, all alone and lost. I don't know how to help these people. How can you help people who don't wanna help themselves? Like i always say. Reap the benefits of smoking : DEATH. I give up.

I came back from Genting on Tuesday. It was a much needed break. Although i didn't think of school, i thought about something else. A past loss. Another thing, I think i didn't give myself time to mourn for a loss (be it good or bad. I reckon its a good loss anyway.) So rather, i focused all my energy to mainly school and other stuff, so please don't say it didn't affect me as much, because it did. I just don't want to let if affect me that much, or show it, so i force myself. Anyway, I fell sick when i came back. Yes, i know i keep falling sick. Ha. Wonder how i'd survive in Cambodia. Did i mention i was goin there? It's a youth expedition project. You know, i've never been so busy and involved in school activities till this year. And boy, it's kinda the wrong year to be so busy, cause it's almost the last year. Anyhow i'm really very busy with school stuff - school work and projects.

Back to Genting. I went with mom, aunt and gran. It was freaking cold and i haven't been there for 6 years. Well, i'm now of age to enter the casino! And you know what? It's no biggie. I didn't exactly like it. It was smokey, kinda boring and not really what i'd like to do. I don't exactly like gambling. But as expected, i was stopped at the check point for being underage. Too bad, this time i wasn't. Lol. I had fun with mom. We ate, slept, walked around and i even watched two movies with mom. We took some photos, me and mom. It was a good rest from the super hot weather here, oh, and my oven-like house.

Parasitic Relationship. I learnt this phrase during Science class. Well, it was describing the fungi and plant or something. Like how one feeds on the other. I like this phrase cause i immediately thought how it could be used on humans. Has anyone ever felt like he/she's been in one? I have. Drained of energy, money and effort. Seems like whatever i did wasn't good enough and i was sucked dry. Let's hope i don't have another of that yea? Hmm, I recently found out some truth and lies about something, someone. Relationships are strange huh? Truth hurts but I don't wanna talk about it here, but all i wanna say is i know the truth now, so stop lying and have the guts to face up to the lies. But i'm fine, mainly because i already guessed it and i was right. Anyway i hate it when i'm right. I think i must have said it upteenth times but i must say it again. I HATE IT WHEN I'M RIGHT. Because i seem to always be right about things that i don't want to be right about. Sad to say, i am always right about these things. My intuition doesn't give a chance!

Side track a little, I think my radar is faulty or my sense organ's failing me. Heh.

I'm suddenly very interested in travelling, flying around the world. I wanna go everywhere. I mean i have been interested, just the sudden surge of interest. I wanna go to Taiwan, Hongkong, Japan, Korea, China (yeah even), Italy, Greece, France, Spain, Brazil, England, Vienna, Switzerland, Sweden, Canada, US, New Zealand, and Australia again. I mean it's just to name a few. It feels like i'm saving up just to travel, but it's all good. I wanna travel, i do!

Alright, mid sem break is almost over. And i gotta start that engine and work hard. Not much time left. So much to do, so little time. If only there's more than 24hrs a day.

Note: If anyone has any job opportunities, tell me k?! I'm currently unemployed! Haha.

her
FRAMED
BEAUTY
3:38 AM;;

fly time, fly.

Time seems to fly so quickly. It's mid semester break already.It's been a pretty hectic 6 weeks. Lotsa things happened. Well, school stuff basically. Alot of school stuff. This semester seems to fly. I don't know why.

Sometimes i'd feel alone. But it's normal. It's just it'd be nice to not feel alone. Maybe i tried too hard to be strong? Maybe i tried to push it away. But i'm fine. I'm going to Genting tomorrow. I need a well-deserved break. Have to run on full speed when i'm back, so a break is essential. Alright. I should be sleeping already. I'd update.

her
FRAMED
BEAUTY
9:06 AM;;

Missing You

I miss you. I miss your hugs. I miss your kisses. I miss your touch. I miss the nights we spend together. I miss you on Mondays. I miss you on Tuesdays. I miss you on Wednesdays. I miss you on Thursdays. I miss you on Fridays. I miss you on Saturdays. I miss you on Sundays. I miss you when i'm in school. I miss you when i'm at home. I miss the days we spend together. I miss the times we spend together. I miss your voice. I miss your smell. I miss your compliments. I miss your laughter. I miss your jokes. I miss your way of thinking. I miss your smile. I miss your hand. I miss the smell of your car. I miss the way your hair feels. I miss how you get shy around me. I miss how you get shy about your freshly washed and unwaxed hair. I miss your eyes. I miss your look. I miss your bed. I miss the red and the blue bed sheets. I miss your room. I miss our photographs. I miss our innocent love. I miss your scruffy look. I miss your lateness. I miss your blue ralph tee. I miss your polo tees. I miss your black cap. I miss your outta shape shoes. I miss your goatee. I miss your white bermudas. I miss your silky black boxers. I miss your colorful boxers. I miss your long sleeved shirts. I miss your charm. I miss your little temper. I miss you being a boy. I miss your man-liness. I miss you snuggling up to me. I miss your cheekiness. I miss your words. I miss your singing voice. I miss the look in your eyes when you look at me. I miss your sweetness. I miss you taking time off to meet me in your busy schedule. I miss you picking me up. I miss you sending me home. I miss your face. I miss your cute little ears. I miss the sound of your breathing. I miss the sound of your heartbeat. I miss the funny sound of your stomach. I miss your scrawny legs. I miss your strength. I miss you carrying me. I miss you doing the blowing thing on me. I miss you playing with the kid at the food court. I miss hearing you speak Cantonese. I miss hearing you say "Wha, I'm good" and give that laugh. I miss hearing your special laughs that crack me up. I miss you trying to cheer me up. I miss you holding my hand. I miss your playful nature. I miss going to the movies with you. I miss going to the beach with you. I miss that night at the beach. I miss touching your face. I miss you at my home. I miss watching you sleep. I miss the massages. I miss that you even felt that you love me before we got together. I miss that i felt i do too. I miss that night where you asked me to be with you. I miss how you let me take pictures of you. I miss the way you say 'bite you. lalalaa'. I miss your phone calls. I miss your messages. I miss hearing you say you miss me. I miss hearing you say you love me. I miss your ideas. I miss your creativeness. I miss the videos we took. I miss the photos we took. I miss the places we've been to. I miss the silly things we do. I miss your silliness. I miss your grumpiness like a little kid when you're tired. I miss your complaints. I miss the way you hug me tight. I miss your sweet talk. I miss the way you care for me. I miss the way you fuss over me. I miss the way you talk to my mom. I miss the way you help me. I miss the way you think of me. I miss how you missed me so much when we're apart/abroad. I miss the way you miss me. I miss the way you say 'hug/kiss me'. I miss how we can be different. I miss our closeness. I miss your bolster. I miss you saying i'm your bolster. I miss you letting me have the bolster at your home. I miss how you teach me to do things. I miss the times when you helped me. I miss the confidence you had in me. I miss the times before we got together. I miss the times when we got together. I miss the times we could sit silent. I miss the times when you're excited. I miss the times when you say you're excited to see me. I miss the times when you plan to meet me. I miss the times when you sacrifice time for me. I miss the time you picked me up from the airport. I miss the time we spend at the camps. I miss the late nights up, using the internet, chatting. I miss you calling yourself my pup. I miss you in class. I miss how you're so late when you come pick me up at home and i'm already prepared, waiting for you, but you don't know. I miss you talking about our dream about the white house and huge windows. I miss the dreams you had about me with someone else. I miss your naughtiness. I miss your 'vanity'. I miss the time you said you tasted blood after my lips bled. I miss the first time i let you touch how my smooth my hand was. I miss the time i missed you so much in Thailand, i only wanted to come back home. I miss the time you went around to 7-11 just to get the Thai sim card to message me. I miss your hunger. I miss it when we sleep at night. I miss it when you called for fun. I miss how you say i've to message you when i get home. I miss it when you said you'd call or message me when you get home. I miss it when you ask me to write you silly things like why you should be pampered. I miss it when i unknowingly owe you lotsa things like dinners, phonecalls, hugs and kisses with no reason, just because you said so. I miss it when you're interested to know how my day went. I miss the first time you held my hand in public, in your green polo tee, and made my heart skipped a beat. I miss that we can't be together all the time anymore. I miss the way you say you love parts of me like my legs. I miss the way you make me forget my surroundings when i'm with you. I miss it when we live in our own little world and not cared about the others. i miss that i could hug or kiss you in public. I miss the way i get mesmerized by you and can't stop looking into your eyes. I miss your sheepish grin. I miss the way you say every part of me is yours. I miss the way you say 'my snack'. I miss the little pleasures you gave me. I miss the way you'd call me dear, darling, baby, girlfriend. I miss rubbing noses. I miss the cheetah. I miss the croc slippers. I miss what we do when we're alone. I miss how i feel about you. I miss how i'd do so much for you and sometimes you do not know. I miss the tingling feeling i feel when you touch me. I miss how i feel protected with you. I miss how even when you're tired, you still hug me. I miss our make-out sessions. I miss the secret places with memories. I miss how you always make that sound and the things you influence me. I miss how i don't know why i'd fall for you in the first place. I miss that first time i talked to you at the stairs about the meeting. I miss your first sms. I miss how you'd copy down my msges onto your notebook. I miss how i fell for you. I miss you singing to me before you left for Thailand. I miss how you were excited about us. I miss how you came to find me at Zouk on your birthday. I miss how you came to find me at my workplaces. I miss how you bought food and were thoughtful to me. I miss how we floated around the 'river' at Wild Wild Wet, just in one another's presence. I missed how we played there, swimming, chasing and baking in the sun. I miss how you learn French phrases from me and try using it on me. I miss you telling me your experiences. I miss you speaking Thai. I miss your ducky voice. I miss how you tried not to do things i don't like. I miss how comfortable i feel when i'm with you. I miss how i can wear anything with you. I miss how i planned those surprises for you. I miss how you like the surprises. I miss how i'd dress up for you. I miss how i become late because i dress up for you. I miss how you merge our names together. I miss how you make me like things like soccer, ktv and even chinese songs. I miss how because of you, i work hard to earn money so we won't feel poor and i could do/buy things to make you happy. I miss how you make me laugh and smile. I miss how i could spend the night at your place before we got together. I miss how you came to my place to do our work. I miss how i waited for you at night to finish your work before i went to bed, either at home or at your place. I miss how we met Sal and went to Night Safari and Sentosa. I miss how you liked those songs i sent to you. I miss how you bought those movies to watch with me. I miss the first movie we watched at my place. I miss how you're always so tired and end up sleeping at my place when you come over. I miss our thumb game alot. I miss how i made you late because you were talking to me online when i was in Thailand. I miss the special times we had together. I miss the experience that were ours only. I miss how you'd always want to meet me. I miss how sometimes you hurt me or say something insensitive and i brush it off because i love you. I miss how i can simply love you. I miss your facial expression when we do our little things. I miss how you'd help me make you happy. I miss the blunders we made. I miss how we helped each other till we got into trouble. I miss how we seemed to be having an affair. I miss how you'd find a place to stay. I miss how you said you had to lend me something to remind of you when you were in Thailand. I miss that you lent me Monk. I miss how you put your aftershave on Monk so i could get your smell. I miss how you wrote a to-bring list for me and included Monk when i was going to Thailand. I'd miss Monk for all the times he's accompanied me when you were not around. I miss how you asked me to get your specks with you. I missed the first week we knew each other. I missed the first time we went on a date. I missed the first korean movie we watched together. I miss how you seem to try even when it was tough. I miss how you keep asking me to send pictures to you. I miss how you say everything of mine is yours and how we have to share everything. I miss us trying to roll around in bed like kids. I miss how you include me in your present and future plans. I miss how my heart skips beats. I miss how i let you do what you want at times. I miss how i give in to you. I miss the personal things we talk about. I miss you telling me about your particular experiences like your past and your running incidents. I miss the time you said the thoughts that go through your mind when you drove. I miss how you put my hand on the gear and showed me how easy it was to shift gears. I miss how you drove home tired after sending me home. I miss how you said you were alone for two years of your life cause i wasn't born yet. I miss the things you say even though i know they're just sweet talk. I miss hearing your stories. I miss how you'd miss or think of me. I miss how you felt about me. I miss how i can't stop hugging/kissing you. I miss how i keep things that remind me of you. I miss how everything i see, it reminds me of you and i'd want to get it for you. I miss how you ask me to keep little mementos, like receipts, of us. I miss how you're in me, in my life. I miss how we can be so close physically. I miss how i'd think of you everyday. I miss how i just want you. I miss how i want to be with you. I miss how you say you get butterflies everytime you hug me. I miss how you express yourself. I miss how you miss my smell. I miss it when we can be close even in the presence of our friends or others. I miss how you made me talk about things and open up to you. I miss how you remember things about us, like the first times we met, what i wore, what we did, what i did. I miss how you amaze me. I miss how i want to change for you. I miss how i want to learn things with you. I miss how i want to be a better person because of you. I miss how i can love you this much without knowing. I miss how this relationship is different from the others. I miss how this list will just grow longer everytime i think of you. I miss how you were before you went to Hong Kong, before you changed and became strange. I miss how you didn't keep things from me, but seem to now. I miss you loving me and having feelings for me. I'd miss how we'd never talk the same again. I'd miss how you'd spare some time, even just a little, to talk to me. I'd miss the memories we share. I'd miss the 1st of March 2006 and 8th of July 2006. I'd miss how we won't be in each other's lives anymore. I'd miss how my love and feelings for you will change to something else. I miss us when we're happy. I miss us when we're sad, upset or even angry. I miss everything and every part of you, the good, the bad, the naughty. I miss you all the time, Ken dear.

But there are also alot of things i don't miss about you. But i won't add it in here.

her
FRAMED
BEAUTY
10:13 AM;;

Dream on...

The weirdest thing happened to me yesterday night. I was sleeping soundly and was suddenly awaken by a rude shock. I felt something heavy fall on my left arm, which propelled me to sit up. Also, since it was a shock, i kinda jumped outta bed. Next thing i saw, this mob of hair on a head, with a body, seemed to be moving slowly towards the fan. For a moment i thought crap is that some ghost? Am i in a dream? Then i decided to close my eyes since it was kinda scary. After a few seconds, i reckon maybe i should check out what was happening, so i slowly peeled open my eyes. The mob of hair was still standing there awkwardly. Then in slow motion, the mob of hair decided to turn around. I was kinda nervous cuz i was imagining this horrific green-faced creature. But i decided i shouldn't be such a chicken. To my surprise, it was my sister! She scared the crap outta me, i tell you.

So let's see what was the events leading to that.
My sister was sleeping and suddenly felt she couldn't breathe. So, she hurried to the fan, wanting to switch it to a higher level or something. In the process of that, she tripped over a dustbin and fell straight on my arm, which i reckon was out of the bed a little. Our beds are side by side, about my arm + 1 hand length. So when i got disturbed from my sleep, i was still in disbelief and kinda stoned for awhile when she was standing at the fan. I couldn't recognise the mob of hair. I was thinking is my sister's hair really like that? I know, haha, how can i not know right? So yeah when she turned around and told me she couldn't breathe, i heaved a sigh of relief. I told her, "You scared the shit outta me, know! Don't ever do that to me again!" Phew. So it was neither a dream or a ghost, just my silly, clumsy sister.

Alright, so i haven't been here for like hmm well, enough to know i'm not here. Since my exams ended, i've been super busy. Went for camps, meetings, planned for one, planned a bash (still), traveled to Bangkok (which wasn't as fantastic as i expected), went for countless of chalets/stay-overs, birthdays, TUITION (gawd!), worked jobs here and there and had lotsa fun with Mr K. I've been so busy lately that i think i haven't exactly gone out/met a couple of my good friends like the girls, the boys, KH, Hammy, KT, and some other here and there. Worse of all, school's starting! I can't believe that 3.5 month's up!

There's still endless things on my To-Do list. Like learning Photoshop, Flash, Dreamweaver, DRIVING (yes, i know girls), Cooking, yadayada. I reckon i should really start studying hard this time.

Note to myself: Spend more time with your family.

Next semester's gonna be ultra busy. My next three weeks are already fully booked, and school hasn't even started. Alright then, i should go. Celebrating mom's birthday today. Happy birthday Mom! Love ya. Take care y'all. Till i write again. Lol.

her
FRAMED
BEAUTY
8:54 PM;;